About me

I’m Emma. I’m 60+ and in the worst health of my life. This is a journal of my efforts to get back on track.

You might wonder if I’m too old to do that; I wonder that sometimes, too. I have Type 2 diabetes, am about 60 pounds overweight, and have a lifetime history of depression. I have a myriad of aging-related issues, too, but I’ve learned that controlling my weight, blood sugar and depression have great effect on those.

If you think you can do it, you can. ~ John Burroughs

So, that’s what this blog is all about. I need to take care of myself and I think keeping a journal of my efforts to do that will help me stay on track. And, it probably won’t hurt that I know others can read this, too. It’s like when you tell someone “I’m on a diet” and then fail, very publicly, to lose weight!

If this blog was all serious and “angsty” and all about stats and bashing myself for my failures, I’d give up and quit writing it – I need a positive approach to this for my health and sanity. So, lest you think it will be all icky stuff, let me tell you that I have a great sense of humor and am fluent in sarcasm!

A little history

My depressionwas fairly serious a couple of years ago when I couldn’t find a reason to live. Medications and a great psychiatric nurse therapist pulled me out of it and not a day too soon.

I’ve had weight issues since I turned about 35, but have always managed to rein them in before they were too out of control. I lost interest in that about the same time my depression worsened.

I’m a Type 2 diabetic, diagnosed about 14 years ago. For a short while after the diagnosis I was basically afraid to eat anything. I quickly figured out that it didn’t much matter what I ate, as long as I was exercising regularly it all stayed under control. I had a long “honeymoon” phase. I was what they call “diet and exercise controlled” even if my diet was completely out of control.

Unfortunately, I let a hectic work schedule and another serious bout of depression take control and I just stopped exercising. I’ve come around in the past few years, after being put on medication. I need to get my act together because I have no interest in insulin. I lost 25 pounds a couple of years ago with diet and exercise and my A1C plummeted to a nice healthy range. My doctor called me a “poster child” for eating right and exercising. But, then I let it go again.

Where I am now (March 27, 2012)

Weight: 190

Morning blood sugar: 125 (a rarity to be that low)

Where I’d like to be

Weight: 135-140

Morning blood sugar: Under 100

This is my journey to wellness. I’m not setting any deadlines, just working my way through it setting small goals until I get there. And, when I’m there maybe this will morph into a blog about how I stay there, because I recognize that this is a lifetime effort.


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