It’s always a treat to discover a new blogger with whom I have so much in common. I’m happy to share one of those discoveries: Rainey Daze and Crazy Nights — Poetry, Paintings, and Ponderings: Through My Eyes.
This is sad, beautifully written and exactly how I feel. It’s a difficult feeling to put into words; doppelgänger is a perfect metaphor. Thank you for writing and sharing it, Rainey.
doppelgänger April 1, 2012
for such a long while i have deceived you
i’m not really me anymore
the doppelgänger me is sleepwalking through my days
faking a smile, completing my tasks with semi-efficiently
while i remain curled protectively around my heart
no one is the wiser and it’s been better this way
but now…
the black tide is rising and i’m growing too tired to swim
the doppelgänger me is beginning to crack
the painted smile is fading
it’s getting too hard
alice is falling through the glass
you will soon know that i am no more
and that leaves me
with nothing.